11 june 2001 -
17 june 2001
 
 
 
 
     
17 june 2001
 

So yesterday I'm in line at CVS to pay for my Clairol Herbal Essences Natural Volume Texturizing Shampoo and a 12-pack of Diet Coke (soda... Brandon's evil influence) when to my surprise the guy in front of me turns around, looks me over, and then turns back around again.

I had to laugh. I mean, what's that all about? But then to my even bigger surprise, he turns around again, looks at me and says, "You don't have to wear lipstick and makeup. You're attractive enough without it." And that's it. He pays for his purchase and leaves.

I was a little...

Well, that's just it. I don't know what I was. Was I miffed? Flattered? Confused? It was just... well... odd. And worst of all... it stuck.

So tonight on the Precor Elliptical Crosstrainer, listening to Liz Phair, post a weekend overdose of season two Sex in the City episodes on DVD, I got to thinking about his comment. And thinking about my lipsticks and my rapidly growing collection of bubble baths and my closet full of skirts and my medicine cabinet full of, not medicine, but clumpy-curly hair products. And then I thought about my lack of shoes and my one handbag per season and my Ani DiFranco CDs and my Margaret Atwood books.

And somewhere wading through all of these things, I concluded that Liz has got it right. Girls are about nuances. They're inconsistent and enigmatic and confusingly... well... girlish. They're as mysterious as Tim O'Brien characters and as quirky as those fabulous four ladies from HBO Sunday nights. They're about floating and balancing in a flux of independence and emotions and hopes and brains. Impossible to pin. Fun to puzzle.

And best of all... a delight to be. Lipstick and makeup and all.

 
 
16 june 2001
 

And just when I feel like I'm just simply not in the mood to update whirlygirl, a little piece of inspiration finds its way into my mailbox, encased in a priority mail cardboard box.

The return address had me smiling... and wondering... and hoping that I would open the package and reveal the exact thing it turned out to be.

Another funky DJ mix from Scott. Randomly perfect. Such an incredible treat with the following inscription:

"Happy Birthday and thanks for two wonderful years of whirlygirl."

The CD was labeled "Lettuce in a Briefcase" which I didn't even get until I read it aloud to Brandon over the telephone, after which I burst out into the kind of uncontrollably loud laughter that I've warned him about repeatedly. And once I calmed down, I took the time to explain two miscellaneous March days from a few years ago spent roaming the streets of Manhattan and Brooklyn with Scott. Drinks in Chelsea. A walk along Varick Street. A late night subway to the Upper West Side. Breakfast at the Strand Diner on 96th Street. Liz Phair on my cousin's stereo on a sunny morning. A search through the West Village for the Royal Canadian Pancake House. Writing poetry on packets of sugar. Browsing the Strand Bookstore. But most of all, our quest to find the guy who sold spinach out of his briefcase. How could I possibly forget?

I was touched. Infinitely. Touched nearly to the point of tears. Not being able to wait to put it in my stereo. Scanning the labeled case to find the gems digitally encoded within. Archers of Loaf. Nina Simone. Ben Harpers' amazing rendition of "Sexual Healing". A classic Yaz tune. Smiling to myself while thinking of how well Scott knows my musical tastes... and how well he pushes them in new directions. But it was track number one, labeled oh-so-subtly as "Theme" that caused those near tears to spring from my eyes. It was the opening theme for The West Wing.

Whirlygirl has afforded me such an amazing opportunity to reach out to people with the baubles and trinkets and tiny and large adventurous moments that wallpaper my life. Some are close friends that I talk and laugh with every day while others are complete strangers who surprisingly appear in my inbox and make a connection.

But the majority fall somewhere in-between. People like Scott: halfway across the country, connected by a smattering of crystalline memories, a few random emails, and an occasional new adventure to breathe in deeply.

On my first whirlygirl entry two years ago I tried to explain what whirlygirl, the web site, was all about:

"Because at some point I ceased to be the kind of girl who makes the effort to contact those people that drift in and out of her mind too frequently to count. A place to put all the finely-tuned sentences and random memories and unleashed verbiage that litter my life. The words have always been there, but now they have a home."

And now I have a new collection of songs, the sweetest birthday gift, to remind me that sometimes whirlygirl manages to accomplish exactly what it was created to do. And the perfect soundtrack to accompany all those drifting memories and questions about all those people just around the bend.

Thanks, Scott. Biggest kiss.

 
 
13 june 2001
 

Since Brandon wasn't entirely busy today I asked him if he wanted to update whirlygirl.

"Ummmm. No. Not because I don't want to, but it would hurt my brain to think of something clever to say."

I told him that was precisely the reason I hadn't updated it.

"I think you should just say that. 'I need some time off.' 'My brain hurts.'"

Except now he's already taken care of that for me.

 
 
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