on my radio... NPR All Things Considered   first thought... America West, Flight 831   first feeling... overwhelming vulnerability   the drive home... relatively quick; incredibly cautious; eerily calm   first phone call... him I could hear the phone begin to ring as soon as I finished locking the gate. I ran through the door, picked up the phone, collapsed in the blue chair, and at the first sound of his voice, finally began to cry.   level of clarity... surprisingly high   phone lines... up and running again