I know what you're thinking... not exactly v.5.0 material. More like v.4.51, right? I understand.
These circuits have been busy with Orioles games and riverside bike rides and new Russell Wright dishes and spring in
general-- but not so much with the designing. I guess everyone needs a bit of a break to actually live life in the present
rather than regurgitating life in the past. But break's over. Time to step up and say something. Even if the format
is only slightly different than before.
I couldn't get to sleep last night. Maybe I'm working out too late in the afternoon to be tired by midnight. Maybe
I just had a lot on my mind. But while B sawed his peaceful logs beside me, my mind whirled with action: stories to post,
gestures to extend, notes to send, connections to make. My normally swampy, sluggish mind felt on fire with ideas--
compelled to action.
Maybe it's just the darkness that makes this will so crisply bright and clear. The welcomed blue skies and lush
green foliage and the tiny silver planes flying overhead overwhelm my senses and steal away my imagined superpowers.
In the light of day, I feel dilatory and weak. I'm unsure of how to put those daring plans into action-- in actuality, I'm
unsure of what all those plans really were. I feel that so many of even last night's smallest dreams have already
evaporated-- with the workout to attend and the chapters to edit and the laundry to fold and the invoices to approve
and the dinner to plan.
Just this post remains. The need to jump start something that has been so missed. The will to document even the
slightest of those late night dreams, if only to have proof of their emergence and the possibilities that live inside of them.
To know that they are out there-- for the kick-started body that longs to stay in motion. Out there for the taking. |
